Category: Mental

Daily Wrap Up 1/8/19

Today was a pretty good day. But it had it’s setbacks, such as me having to type this again. It started with me deciding not to do my morning workout, which would have been fine except I ended up not being able to sleep more. I did eventually do rosetta stone, so better than nothing.

I managed to do all my usually morning stuff and get to work on time. I had 2 cases, both went fine. Then I hit a setback. I usually am able to bang out a 3 mile run at baseline. I’m not fast, but I ran 12 half marathons in 12 months in 2017, so I can run. It was raining outside so I used the treadmill in the hospital gym (I know, exciting). But I don’t know what happened, I was unable to run. I ran a mile thinking I was just mentally not in it enough, but after a mile and a half I called it quits and got off the treadmill feeling dizzy, weak, dazed and just overall bad.

I immediately ate lunch, some tuna over a salad with dressing I brought. At the last second I grabbed a banana, realizing I haven’t had a singly starchy thing in a week, only some fruit and kombucha occasionally in the carb department. I figured that + whole 30 day 7 might be what was causing my issues.

I then spent an hour on instagram doing nothing, which I very much regret. But eventually I got myself in gear and left to run some errands (benefit of being chief is I get to leave when I want, within reason). I bought a new yoga mat, got some mascara I ran out of, picked up prescriptions, pretty much the definition of errands.

On the way home I did everything I could to convince myself I didn’t need to do my plyocide. None of my reasons were good. So when I got home I DID IT. And gave a pretty decent effort too. I cooked dinner which gave enough leftovers for tomorrow, and I got some of my work done. Some but not all. All the essentials though. And a few other little things got taken care of.

So I’m going to remember it’s a marathon, not a sprint and mark today down as a win.

Daily Wrap Up 1/7/19

Today was a pretty good day.

Not everything went right. But a lot of things did. What went wrong wasn’t due to my own error or inadequacies.

I managed to be flexible and work through these issues without letting it ruin my momentum for the day, which is new for me.

I got up this morning a little before my alarm (3:30am, I know, trust me, I know how early it is). I got up and made my lemon/apple cider vinegar/collagen drink and wrote that first blog post.

Then I did P90X2. I have started this program more times than I can possibly count, but it kicked my ass this morning. I am really out of shape for me! But I did it, I hurt and I smelled and I loved it at the end. Well, maybe not loved, but I didn’t hate it. I did my skin care routine and actually managed to make some coffee and grab my food without forgetting it! (Today was vanilla collagen creamer day and it was delicious. Vital proteins is whole 30 approved, in case you were wondering).

Work went…as work does. I ended up not doing the first case I thought I would, but I was able to help with floor work, then the next case was supposed to be a huge gastrectomy but we had to just do a palliative bypass. By this time I was able to have lunch and do some studying (I actually got all my outlining and lectures done today, but only did 18/143 questions).

Then, a case started around 1pm that was supposed to take maybe 2 hrs at most took 4 hrs. FOUR. And it wasn’t a happy 4, it was a painful, exasperating, want to quit multiple times kind of case. At the end I think it ended up successful, but it was. So. Painful. Ugh.

Anyway, I had been planning to try out a cardio kickboxing class at my gym, but it was way too late by the time I got to leave work for that. This is the moment I would usually derail. After 5, on my way home, plan for afternoon already with huge wrench in it. I would usually come home, eat a crappy dinner and just watch Netflix for a few hours before going to sleep. NO. I did not do this. I actually managed to accept my work hiccups, went home and made a different dinner than I was planning on (much shorter dinner) and got to work.

I’m on day 6 of whole 30, and I had a delicious salad (Tessemaes creamy Caesar, you are my one and only true love) and some knockwurst (yes compliant) with spicy brown mustard (I die). I also had a handful of cherries, but JUST a handful. I’m telling you, Monday Motivation is where it’s at. If only I could continue this all week!

I did some work, I actually did my full nightly skin care routine and I read some of my current book, Becoming by Michelle Obama.

I missed out on outlining my chess chapter, playing guitar, most of my questions and my kickboxing class…but I feel pretty awesome. I know I did a pretty great job with the time I had. I don’t feel like I wasted my time today. I feel good. So I’m going to harness this feeling, meditate before bed and then do it all again tomorrow. Although hopefully without the OR timing issues. With any luck, I’ll be able to catch up a little tomorrow since I should only have a couple big cases and can be done early.

If you’re feeling disheartened by an imperfect day, don’t. Look at what you did do. Look at what felt good. Then do it again tomorrow. But better.